If I had a dollar...

For every time I thought about blogging... I'd be very rich. But I always seem to think about it at the most inopportune times. Like when I'm driving to work. Or driving to school (I'd love to blog in class, but since most of the time I'm complaining about something that's going on in classes, I'd rather not let everyone know I have a blog, lol).

I can't believe it's almost March. It's strange to think that Christmas was only two months ago yesterday, but it feels like it was so much longer ago. And technically I only started classes a month ago yesterday, but I feel like it should be the end of the semester already. Time flies.

I was super excited yesterday because Megamind came out. And aside from some wasted time wondering around Target on Thursday looking for it, and then being bummed that they sold out of it very quickly yesterday and being forced to go to Walmart *gasp*, I'm a very happy girl. I love this movie. It's probably my favorite non-Disney animated movie. I'm trying to come up with what was my favorite non-Disney animated movie before this, but I'm floundering. OH! How to Train Your Dragon. Which is still very very cute, but I could sit down and watch Megamind several times a day. Will Ferrell cracks me up.

It's been extremely windy these past couple of days and yesterday the wind blew out a transformer at work so from three thirty until the time we went home everyone was sitting in the dark. For about an hour the phones stayed on but then even they lost power so we were sitting in the dark doing nothing. That hospital is CREEPY without any lights. Like the phones, we had emergency lighting but their stored power only lasted about as long as the phones, so treatment was completely plunged into darkness. We had to prop open the swinging doors in order to let sunlight in, but that only reaches so far. The doctor's office was pitch black and when I walked in there with a flashlight it was eerie. To be fair, it seems eerie when the lights are on and there is no one in there because I'm so used to there being at least one doctor in there talking on the phone or making notes or typing on the computer. The feeling was kind of like in the movie Titanic when the submarine has found the wreck and a small beam of light falls onto only small sections of the ship and it's all seaweedy and gross (obviously there was no seaweed on the desks, but the eerie feeling of disrupting something that's at rest is the same). But I got to go home at five instead of six because there was nothing to do, so score one for the wind. Course, traffic sucked coming home and it took me almost an hour to get to my mom's house....

Alright, I'm gonna wrap it up here... time to zumba! =)

This is my new favorite lazy song

Impressive.

(in my head, I said "impressive" in my best Darth Vader impression)

Anyone else impressed by the fact I'm back a second day in a row to update the blog? Probably not since I have three followers, and one person who only comments occasionally... seriously, I'm mostly talking to myself here. Lol.

Regardless... I'M impressed that I'm back.

Droid finally added "words with friends" to the market. Five hours in, I'm addicted. And no one seems to believe that I suck at this game because I'm an English major. Just because I'm majoring in English doesn't mean that I have complete control and mastery of the language. haha.

I saw that the real-life inspiration for Lois Lane died. She outlived her husband (one of the creators of Superman) by twelve years. Pretty impressive. (Darth Vader again! I'm not trying to see how many times I can reference him, really.) Lots of news in the superhero realm today... They've just announced the actress who will be playing the next Wonder Woman. Neat fact, Wonder Woman hasn't been granted her own movie since the 70's (I think I remember that correctly).

I had a dream last night that my car was repo'd because I didn't clean it. Granted, my car is extremely dirty thanks to all the salt and sand from these "big" snow storms we've had... but I don't think that's any reason to dream about it being taken away from me, lol. In my dream I kept screaming at the tow truck guys "But I pay my car payment! You get money from me every month! You can't do this!" and one of the guys looks at me and says "Ma'am, that just isn't good enough." So I proceed to viciously beat him. But they take my car anyway. Funny thing is, when I woke up this morning the first thing I did was run downstairs to make sure Lizzie was still in the garage. Strange how even stupid dreams feel so real.

Well, "words with friends" is claiming my attention (it's so sad, I'm sitting here playing on my phone, trying to type this, and listening to Glee).



mmm.... Matthew Morrison.

so much DRAMA

Seriously. If I wanted drama, I'd major in it. (har har)

I had this extremely clever post all planned out to post (I was bored driving home) and now that I'm home and sitting in front of my computer, I can't remember what I wanted to write about. Oh well. If it was important it'll come to me.

Itunes has this special going on for who knows how long, but they have a bunch of songs that are only 69cents. I went crazy last night. I bought like 26 songs... and stopped myself from buying several more. Bought a lot of 60's music which makes me smile (I'm not sure why that makes me smile, my mind drifted for a second and that's what my fingers decided to type). Holy cow I'm tired.

So... just to too my own horn for a minute... I had this two page paper due a couple weeks ago. I wrote it at work and only spent about 20 minutes collectively on it. I didn't feel like writing the paper and couldn't concentrate, but i punched it out. Well, I got an A on it (which didn't actually surprise me that much, I had this professor last semester so I know what she wants) but then yesterday in class she passed it out as an example of what a "Good paper" looks like. That makes me grin.

I just typed that last paragraph with my eyes closed and I had to go back and fix a bunch of errors that I made because I'm exhausted and my hands feel heavily. I'm gonna leave this post at this.



this is literally what I'm listening to now (Thank you 69 cent itunes songs!). The blonde with the blocky glasses is totally hott. Snort.

Happy Singles Awareness Day!

(anyone else notice that the initials for that would be Happy SAD? Interesting.)

I'm in love with James Blunt.

This is nothing new, really. I've loved him since "You're Beautiful" hit airwaves several years ago. There's something about a British crooner that really turns me on though. Could be the accent... and I know sometimes you can't tell a person has an accent when they sing... but you can totally hear James' in his songs. He has a new CD out... and I'm a bad fan and at the moment can't recall what the hell the name of it is... (Could look it up on itunes, but I'm lazy at the moment.) But there's a song on his new CD that I really love. Okay, there are like five songs on the CD I really love. And damn it, I'm gonna have to look at itunes because I can't remember any of the names of the songs. (I fail at life today, obviously). Okay, the CD is called "Some Kind of Trouble." And looking at the names of the songs,  I have noooo idea what the songs are that I like. But I'll figure it out and hopefully post one at the end of this highly informative blogpost.

Today was wholly uneventful, which is how I like my Valentine's days. There's really no point to this day because shouldn't we express love for our significant other EVERY day? And the fact that I'm significant otherless doesn't make me at alllll bitter on this day in particular, lol. But seriously... if I saw one more rose delivery or edible arrangement march itself past my desk at work, I was going to punch the delivery boy. But then at the end of the day, Jon brought me in tulips (My favorite!) and coffee from Starbucks. =) Who needs a valentine when you've got a sweet little brother?

Alright, Zumba kicked my ass (but I liked every minute of it!) and I had three cheese sticks and a lowfat Starbucks drink for dinner... so I've gotta find something to do to distract me from my aching muscles and not quite satisfied stomach. Night all!

And as promised.... "These are the Words" off Blunt's new album =)

Weekends go by WAAAAAY too fast

Had a mostly uneventful but pretty fun weekend.

Yesterday flew by... I woke up to go to Zumba (yay I didn't sleep through my alarm!) and then went straight from class to get my haircut, had lunch with mom, then went home to take a nap before heading over to Becky's.

Becky never lets me pay her when she gives me a massage so I always like to treat them to dinner (usually we do Chinese). Last night I was craving Chik-fil-a and she agreed to go get some (which is funny because she's a vegetarian... so why she agreed to that is beyond me) but we go through the drive-thru because inside looks insane, and she pulls out a twenty dollar bill to pay for it. So we're sitting there arguing about who is going pay. She's convinced I won't be able to pay because she's closer to the window. Right before we pull up to the window to pay I snatch the bill out of her hand and crumple it in my fist so she can't get it back. We pull up to the window and I'm laughing and she's shrieking and the girl in the window is looking at us like we've got five heads. Becky keeps yelling "She's got my money!" and I'm yelling "BECAUSE YOU AREN'T PAYING!!!" and finally I have the common sense to reach across her and pass my card to the poor girl who has no idea what's going on. Meanwhile Cammie is in the backseat asking for french fries. It was hilarious.

We ended up watching Despicable Me when we got back to their house. It was cute, but not as cute as I was honestly expecting. Megamind was a lot better in my opinion. I was a bit distracted throughout the movie though, I was roughhousing with Cammie (I would chase her around the family room and then grab her and hold her upside down until she squirmed free). I brought Cammie this cute little Disney set I bought on clearance at Target... it came with bath gel, lotion, and shampoo but also a crown and two barrettes. Cammie took it upon herself to do Becky's hair and then grab everything off her and do my hair. Towards the end of the movie when we were all fairly exhausted (it was almost ten at this point) Cammie curled up next to me and rested her head on my shoulder. It was so fricking cute. AAAAAnd I got a picture of it!

Isn't she precious in her little glitter shoes? She's HUGE, too. She's only 2 and already in a 4T. She's growing up way too fast. At least Becky has another one on the way so I can get my baby fix again. =)

In other big news... I bought my plane tickets for Alaska today! Yay! I fly out on August 13 and fly back on the 20th. I change flights in Denver on my way out and Seattle on my way back. I have three hours in Denver and less than one hour in Seattle. I wish it was the other way around. I've been to Denver. Never been to Seattle. Would like some time to at least grab a shot glass on my way through the airport. Oh well. Super excited though. I can't wait! Also in the process of planning a long-weekend trip to Pittsburgh in June. O and I are going to the Taylor Swift concert :-)

Well... it's almost 11 and it's a work night so I suppose I should wrap up here and hit the sack.

OH... I made the Superman theme song my default ringer today. How big of a dork does that make me?

...on second thought, don't answer that.

Later, bloggers!


(couldn't resist, hehehe. One of the comments on the video is that John Williams could make eating a donut sound epic. I agree to an extent. A lot of his music is starting to sound a like. But he did an amazing job with Harry Potter, so I'll never knock the man).

Life gets in the way.

Four months ago today I got a phone call that changed my life in ways I didn't expect, because of a boy who wandered in and out of my life one summer. In some ways I can't believe it's been four months already... on the other hand it feels like an eternity ago that all this happened. But I'm going to post a couple of poems I wrote, because as always, Chris seems to be on my mind.

Unfocused

Of all the things I regret that summer-

The words I wouldn’t say,

The grand gestures I wouldn’t let you make-

What upsets me most is

That the only picture of us is grainy. 

Too bright. Unfocused. Imperfect.

Just like my memories have become. 

But in the picture we’re flying-

Arms outstretched, suspended from above-

And that’s how I like to picture you now.

With that crazy half-grin on your face

Pointing at all of us from up above. 

"Wyoming" 

I used to imagine what my reaction would be

If I were to get the call-- my varying degrees

of horror, and as you started to fall away from me,

the wonder if I’d feel any horror at all. 

I used to imagine my reaction in hopes that 

It would never happen. That you would never

be that desperate; as if my imagination were

powerful enough to stop you. 

But now it has happened and my reaction was

something I never could have imagined. The hours

of tears and disbelief. The unanswered prayers

that it was some sort of accident.The feeling

that I let you down. That I missed signs.

That I should have said something. 

One day I won’t remember how it felt sitting

in the car with you, waiting at a light playing

air drums and air guitar to bad 80’s music.

One day I won’t remember what your voice 

sounded like when you teased me or the way

your lips curled into a smile whenever you saw me. 

One day you’ll be nothing more than 

the boy who wandered into my life one summer. 

One day I’ll find peace and I’ll accept what you did.

But for now you’re a million “what ifs” running through my head. 

This song doesn't seem exactly fitting with my melancholy post... but he used to get in my car and search through my ipod until he found it and then play it on repeat... I've found I'll skip by it now, but I'll post it here for him... 

A few poems....

I had to write these for my Creative Writing class... and unlike most of the other exercises where I've absolutely hated everything that came from it... I'm actually kinda happy with these. So read and let me know what you think.

Poem 14- 

Pull the string.

See how the head moves

The arm twitches

The legs jump

And then fall limp again.

The Manipulator speaks

And the puppet’s lip move

In unison, though the words

Are not its own.

A million thoughts run

Through the puppet’s head

But without prompting

The wooden lips stay silent

And the doll is still.

Poem 15- Fable

No fear as I step up to the ledge.

The cliff is steep, the bottom

Somewhere far below in the fog.

But the bottom is not worrisome to me.

Ahead of me all I can see is azure

And wisps of clouds that dot the sky.

The moment comes and I launch myself

Into the open space ahead of me.

I am suspended in air for a short time

And a grin crosses my face.

It is not until I start to fall

That I remember I have no wings.

Poem 16- Autobiographical

The teacher- so confident with the experiment-

Looked on in shock at her student’s tears.

It is true that the egg (dropped from

The top of a ladder in an encasement

Crafted by the student’s impatient fingers)

Broke open and scrambled when it hit the ground,

But hadn’t it been a learning experience?

My vision blurred, my nose running, I tried

To convince the teacher that it wasn’t her fault.

It was me. I was the one with yolk and shell on my fingers.

It was I who had failed the experiment, the one left

To pick up the pieces.

Poem 17- Dream

The bride runs through the garden.

Her veil trails behind her,

Fanning out like a peacock’s tail.

The dress is stiff and doesn’t feel quite right

She hikes it up to expose her feet

So she does not trip during her journey.

Her brittle bouquet collapses in the wind

Dropping petals to the path

As testimony that she was there.

The chapel looms ahead

Stony white, immaculate.

The bride rushes in

And the entire congregation turns to face her.

She realizes it is not her wedding

(finding a video of that song that was actually GOOD and didn't include clips from New Moon was haaaaaard)