If I had a dollar...

For every time I thought about blogging... I'd be very rich. But I always seem to think about it at the most inopportune times. Like when I'm driving to work. Or driving to school (I'd love to blog in class, but since most of the time I'm complaining about something that's going on in classes, I'd rather not let everyone know I have a blog, lol).

I can't believe it's almost March. It's strange to think that Christmas was only two months ago yesterday, but it feels like it was so much longer ago. And technically I only started classes a month ago yesterday, but I feel like it should be the end of the semester already. Time flies.

I was super excited yesterday because Megamind came out. And aside from some wasted time wondering around Target on Thursday looking for it, and then being bummed that they sold out of it very quickly yesterday and being forced to go to Walmart *gasp*, I'm a very happy girl. I love this movie. It's probably my favorite non-Disney animated movie. I'm trying to come up with what was my favorite non-Disney animated movie before this, but I'm floundering. OH! How to Train Your Dragon. Which is still very very cute, but I could sit down and watch Megamind several times a day. Will Ferrell cracks me up.

It's been extremely windy these past couple of days and yesterday the wind blew out a transformer at work so from three thirty until the time we went home everyone was sitting in the dark. For about an hour the phones stayed on but then even they lost power so we were sitting in the dark doing nothing. That hospital is CREEPY without any lights. Like the phones, we had emergency lighting but their stored power only lasted about as long as the phones, so treatment was completely plunged into darkness. We had to prop open the swinging doors in order to let sunlight in, but that only reaches so far. The doctor's office was pitch black and when I walked in there with a flashlight it was eerie. To be fair, it seems eerie when the lights are on and there is no one in there because I'm so used to there being at least one doctor in there talking on the phone or making notes or typing on the computer. The feeling was kind of like in the movie Titanic when the submarine has found the wreck and a small beam of light falls onto only small sections of the ship and it's all seaweedy and gross (obviously there was no seaweed on the desks, but the eerie feeling of disrupting something that's at rest is the same). But I got to go home at five instead of six because there was nothing to do, so score one for the wind. Course, traffic sucked coming home and it took me almost an hour to get to my mom's house....

Alright, I'm gonna wrap it up here... time to zumba! =)

This is my new favorite lazy song

Impressive.

(in my head, I said "impressive" in my best Darth Vader impression)

Anyone else impressed by the fact I'm back a second day in a row to update the blog? Probably not since I have three followers, and one person who only comments occasionally... seriously, I'm mostly talking to myself here. Lol.

Regardless... I'M impressed that I'm back.

Droid finally added "words with friends" to the market. Five hours in, I'm addicted. And no one seems to believe that I suck at this game because I'm an English major. Just because I'm majoring in English doesn't mean that I have complete control and mastery of the language. haha.

I saw that the real-life inspiration for Lois Lane died. She outlived her husband (one of the creators of Superman) by twelve years. Pretty impressive. (Darth Vader again! I'm not trying to see how many times I can reference him, really.) Lots of news in the superhero realm today... They've just announced the actress who will be playing the next Wonder Woman. Neat fact, Wonder Woman hasn't been granted her own movie since the 70's (I think I remember that correctly).

I had a dream last night that my car was repo'd because I didn't clean it. Granted, my car is extremely dirty thanks to all the salt and sand from these "big" snow storms we've had... but I don't think that's any reason to dream about it being taken away from me, lol. In my dream I kept screaming at the tow truck guys "But I pay my car payment! You get money from me every month! You can't do this!" and one of the guys looks at me and says "Ma'am, that just isn't good enough." So I proceed to viciously beat him. But they take my car anyway. Funny thing is, when I woke up this morning the first thing I did was run downstairs to make sure Lizzie was still in the garage. Strange how even stupid dreams feel so real.

Well, "words with friends" is claiming my attention (it's so sad, I'm sitting here playing on my phone, trying to type this, and listening to Glee).



mmm.... Matthew Morrison.

so much DRAMA

Seriously. If I wanted drama, I'd major in it. (har har)

I had this extremely clever post all planned out to post (I was bored driving home) and now that I'm home and sitting in front of my computer, I can't remember what I wanted to write about. Oh well. If it was important it'll come to me.

Itunes has this special going on for who knows how long, but they have a bunch of songs that are only 69cents. I went crazy last night. I bought like 26 songs... and stopped myself from buying several more. Bought a lot of 60's music which makes me smile (I'm not sure why that makes me smile, my mind drifted for a second and that's what my fingers decided to type). Holy cow I'm tired.

So... just to too my own horn for a minute... I had this two page paper due a couple weeks ago. I wrote it at work and only spent about 20 minutes collectively on it. I didn't feel like writing the paper and couldn't concentrate, but i punched it out. Well, I got an A on it (which didn't actually surprise me that much, I had this professor last semester so I know what she wants) but then yesterday in class she passed it out as an example of what a "Good paper" looks like. That makes me grin.

I just typed that last paragraph with my eyes closed and I had to go back and fix a bunch of errors that I made because I'm exhausted and my hands feel heavily. I'm gonna leave this post at this.



this is literally what I'm listening to now (Thank you 69 cent itunes songs!). The blonde with the blocky glasses is totally hott. Snort.

Happy Singles Awareness Day!

(anyone else notice that the initials for that would be Happy SAD? Interesting.)

I'm in love with James Blunt.

This is nothing new, really. I've loved him since "You're Beautiful" hit airwaves several years ago. There's something about a British crooner that really turns me on though. Could be the accent... and I know sometimes you can't tell a person has an accent when they sing... but you can totally hear James' in his songs. He has a new CD out... and I'm a bad fan and at the moment can't recall what the hell the name of it is... (Could look it up on itunes, but I'm lazy at the moment.) But there's a song on his new CD that I really love. Okay, there are like five songs on the CD I really love. And damn it, I'm gonna have to look at itunes because I can't remember any of the names of the songs. (I fail at life today, obviously). Okay, the CD is called "Some Kind of Trouble." And looking at the names of the songs,  I have noooo idea what the songs are that I like. But I'll figure it out and hopefully post one at the end of this highly informative blogpost.

Today was wholly uneventful, which is how I like my Valentine's days. There's really no point to this day because shouldn't we express love for our significant other EVERY day? And the fact that I'm significant otherless doesn't make me at alllll bitter on this day in particular, lol. But seriously... if I saw one more rose delivery or edible arrangement march itself past my desk at work, I was going to punch the delivery boy. But then at the end of the day, Jon brought me in tulips (My favorite!) and coffee from Starbucks. =) Who needs a valentine when you've got a sweet little brother?

Alright, Zumba kicked my ass (but I liked every minute of it!) and I had three cheese sticks and a lowfat Starbucks drink for dinner... so I've gotta find something to do to distract me from my aching muscles and not quite satisfied stomach. Night all!

And as promised.... "These are the Words" off Blunt's new album =)

Weekends go by WAAAAAY too fast

Had a mostly uneventful but pretty fun weekend.

Yesterday flew by... I woke up to go to Zumba (yay I didn't sleep through my alarm!) and then went straight from class to get my haircut, had lunch with mom, then went home to take a nap before heading over to Becky's.

Becky never lets me pay her when she gives me a massage so I always like to treat them to dinner (usually we do Chinese). Last night I was craving Chik-fil-a and she agreed to go get some (which is funny because she's a vegetarian... so why she agreed to that is beyond me) but we go through the drive-thru because inside looks insane, and she pulls out a twenty dollar bill to pay for it. So we're sitting there arguing about who is going pay. She's convinced I won't be able to pay because she's closer to the window. Right before we pull up to the window to pay I snatch the bill out of her hand and crumple it in my fist so she can't get it back. We pull up to the window and I'm laughing and she's shrieking and the girl in the window is looking at us like we've got five heads. Becky keeps yelling "She's got my money!" and I'm yelling "BECAUSE YOU AREN'T PAYING!!!" and finally I have the common sense to reach across her and pass my card to the poor girl who has no idea what's going on. Meanwhile Cammie is in the backseat asking for french fries. It was hilarious.

We ended up watching Despicable Me when we got back to their house. It was cute, but not as cute as I was honestly expecting. Megamind was a lot better in my opinion. I was a bit distracted throughout the movie though, I was roughhousing with Cammie (I would chase her around the family room and then grab her and hold her upside down until she squirmed free). I brought Cammie this cute little Disney set I bought on clearance at Target... it came with bath gel, lotion, and shampoo but also a crown and two barrettes. Cammie took it upon herself to do Becky's hair and then grab everything off her and do my hair. Towards the end of the movie when we were all fairly exhausted (it was almost ten at this point) Cammie curled up next to me and rested her head on my shoulder. It was so fricking cute. AAAAAnd I got a picture of it!

Isn't she precious in her little glitter shoes? She's HUGE, too. She's only 2 and already in a 4T. She's growing up way too fast. At least Becky has another one on the way so I can get my baby fix again. =)

In other big news... I bought my plane tickets for Alaska today! Yay! I fly out on August 13 and fly back on the 20th. I change flights in Denver on my way out and Seattle on my way back. I have three hours in Denver and less than one hour in Seattle. I wish it was the other way around. I've been to Denver. Never been to Seattle. Would like some time to at least grab a shot glass on my way through the airport. Oh well. Super excited though. I can't wait! Also in the process of planning a long-weekend trip to Pittsburgh in June. O and I are going to the Taylor Swift concert :-)

Well... it's almost 11 and it's a work night so I suppose I should wrap up here and hit the sack.

OH... I made the Superman theme song my default ringer today. How big of a dork does that make me?

...on second thought, don't answer that.

Later, bloggers!


(couldn't resist, hehehe. One of the comments on the video is that John Williams could make eating a donut sound epic. I agree to an extent. A lot of his music is starting to sound a like. But he did an amazing job with Harry Potter, so I'll never knock the man).

Life gets in the way.

Four months ago today I got a phone call that changed my life in ways I didn't expect, because of a boy who wandered in and out of my life one summer. In some ways I can't believe it's been four months already... on the other hand it feels like an eternity ago that all this happened. But I'm going to post a couple of poems I wrote, because as always, Chris seems to be on my mind.

Unfocused

Of all the things I regret that summer-

The words I wouldn’t say,

The grand gestures I wouldn’t let you make-

What upsets me most is

That the only picture of us is grainy. 

Too bright. Unfocused. Imperfect.

Just like my memories have become. 

But in the picture we’re flying-

Arms outstretched, suspended from above-

And that’s how I like to picture you now.

With that crazy half-grin on your face

Pointing at all of us from up above. 

"Wyoming" 

I used to imagine what my reaction would be

If I were to get the call-- my varying degrees

of horror, and as you started to fall away from me,

the wonder if I’d feel any horror at all. 

I used to imagine my reaction in hopes that 

It would never happen. That you would never

be that desperate; as if my imagination were

powerful enough to stop you. 

But now it has happened and my reaction was

something I never could have imagined. The hours

of tears and disbelief. The unanswered prayers

that it was some sort of accident.The feeling

that I let you down. That I missed signs.

That I should have said something. 

One day I won’t remember how it felt sitting

in the car with you, waiting at a light playing

air drums and air guitar to bad 80’s music.

One day I won’t remember what your voice 

sounded like when you teased me or the way

your lips curled into a smile whenever you saw me. 

One day you’ll be nothing more than 

the boy who wandered into my life one summer. 

One day I’ll find peace and I’ll accept what you did.

But for now you’re a million “what ifs” running through my head. 

This song doesn't seem exactly fitting with my melancholy post... but he used to get in my car and search through my ipod until he found it and then play it on repeat... I've found I'll skip by it now, but I'll post it here for him... 

A few poems....

I had to write these for my Creative Writing class... and unlike most of the other exercises where I've absolutely hated everything that came from it... I'm actually kinda happy with these. So read and let me know what you think.

Poem 14- 

Pull the string.

See how the head moves

The arm twitches

The legs jump

And then fall limp again.

The Manipulator speaks

And the puppet’s lip move

In unison, though the words

Are not its own.

A million thoughts run

Through the puppet’s head

But without prompting

The wooden lips stay silent

And the doll is still.

Poem 15- Fable

No fear as I step up to the ledge.

The cliff is steep, the bottom

Somewhere far below in the fog.

But the bottom is not worrisome to me.

Ahead of me all I can see is azure

And wisps of clouds that dot the sky.

The moment comes and I launch myself

Into the open space ahead of me.

I am suspended in air for a short time

And a grin crosses my face.

It is not until I start to fall

That I remember I have no wings.

Poem 16- Autobiographical

The teacher- so confident with the experiment-

Looked on in shock at her student’s tears.

It is true that the egg (dropped from

The top of a ladder in an encasement

Crafted by the student’s impatient fingers)

Broke open and scrambled when it hit the ground,

But hadn’t it been a learning experience?

My vision blurred, my nose running, I tried

To convince the teacher that it wasn’t her fault.

It was me. I was the one with yolk and shell on my fingers.

It was I who had failed the experiment, the one left

To pick up the pieces.

Poem 17- Dream

The bride runs through the garden.

Her veil trails behind her,

Fanning out like a peacock’s tail.

The dress is stiff and doesn’t feel quite right

She hikes it up to expose her feet

So she does not trip during her journey.

Her brittle bouquet collapses in the wind

Dropping petals to the path

As testimony that she was there.

The chapel looms ahead

Stony white, immaculate.

The bride rushes in

And the entire congregation turns to face her.

She realizes it is not her wedding

(finding a video of that song that was actually GOOD and didn't include clips from New Moon was haaaaaard)

*taps microphone* is this thing on?

Yeah, so it's been a while since my last post. I'm sure we're all used to the break in posts so this is nothing new. Or newsworthy. lol.

School has officially started up again. It's a bit of a surprise, but I actually don't feel as busy as I did last semester, and I'm even taking more classes (same amount of credits, though). Maybe I just got used to the homework load last semester... but part of me feels like I actually have less work.

I've actually been doing some writing too! But mostly for the creative writing class. We're studying poetry. And I do mean studying it. We have a book to read and exercises to follow. There has been some heavy mocking of the book on my part because I've always thought if you have to be prompted by a book, it doesn't bode well for your creative tendencies. A couple people have said that they really like the book... so whatever works for them, I guess. I'm pretty sure I'm going to come across as a bitch in that class because I'm a tough editor to begin with... I'm really hoping people just aren't poetry writers. Which, I'm not either.... but goodness.

It also looks like I might be in a wedding before the end of the year.... won't say anymore on who or when until the proposal actually happens. But I'm starting to feel like the last of all my friends to get engaged. I still don't even have a boyfriend, for god's sakes. A couple weeks ago I had dinner with Jennie and I was telling her how I felt about being single and her response was "You have different goals right now. It's not like you won't ever find anyone, it's just not at the top of your list." I thought that was interesting. But maybe it's definitely not at the top of my list, since my opinion of being single seems to change with every day. But that's enough of the poor-single-me speech.

what else is going on? Not a lot. Haven't read anything interesting (yay, schoolwork!) haven't seen any good movies recently (do NOT see "No Strings Attached" with Ashton Kutcher and Natalie Portman. It is not good.) Wait, scratch that... I watched "The Lives of Others" about two weeks ago. It's a German film with English subtitles, which gets a little annoying because it requires more attention than any other movie I'd pop in and watch while multitasking, but it's totally worth it.

OH, and I'm totally fine about the Steelers losing the Superbowl. They didn't play like they wanted ring #7... so if they aren't bothered by it, I won't bother myself about it either. Honestly can't say I remembered much of the game... I was plastered by halftime. I remember when the score was 14-0, I laughed. Don't remember most of the commercials, either... but this one was my absolute favorite:


and not just because I'm a huge Star Wars dork, either. I love the father's facial expression towards his wife after he pushes the bottom to start the car, and I love how the little Darth jumps back. And now I feel like I'm sitting in one of my film classes analyzing the commercial. I'll stop.

Well, I'm gonna end the post now. Until next time!



...that one is because I'm a GLEEk =)

Superman

I have a new guilty pleasure. I've always been a Superman type of girl, but I've started watching "Lois and Clark" (you know, that 90's sitcom staring Terri Hatcher with a really bad haircut?) and Dean Cain has pushed my Superman attraction into an addiction. Even when he's in his dorky glasses, I'm in love. Now, considering the show came out in 93 and that was almost twenty years ago, obviously Mr. Cain doesn't look as great now as he did then... but why live in the present when you can watch a TV show that's twenty years old? lol.

yummy. *sigh*

and... out of costume...

 

still just as delicious. haha

This got me thinking.... I think I have an obsession with dorky boys. Case in point: my favorite character on TV right now is Leonard Hofstadter from Big Bang Theory. 

Leonard: in his dorky glory. 

But then again, when you take him out of character, he looks like this: 

(I just noticed I picked pictures where he's wearing the same colors. That's funny. But it just works to prove that he's hott). 

Anyways, I think I can relate to Lois. Especially in this series. IN the first episode, Lois' sister (Lucy) says something like "you've got to stop acting so smart around guys, you'll scare them off" and I think I sometimes have the same problem. Maybe not entirely the smart factor, but I'm passionate about issues. I'm also picky, which Lois and I have in common. She finds her Superman.... I'm still waiting for mine. 

....and if he looks anything like Dean Cain or Johnny Galecki, I'll be a very very happy girl =) 

Lois out. =) 

Had to post this for my boys =)

Steelers shut up the Ravens, 31-24 and I'm a very very happy girl!

Also, Belle ate almost a dollar fifty in pennies and had to have surgery today.... so my day has been stressful, to say the least. But I'm walking on sunshine right now!



A real post will follow soon =)

Quickly...

Quick post update. I started reading a new book on Wednesday, as reported here. I finished it yesterday. It was fascinating. Not necessarily something I think I'll list as a favorite, but I was captivated. Rightfully so, I think, because I'm pretty sure that this book was banned (or at least it was in *OMG I forgot the name of the movie!* Breakdance? Argh... the one with Kevin Bacon). Anyways, it's very antiwar and it's a little out there, but it's a very quick interesting read and I recommend it to anyone who has some free time.

Definitely not what I was expecting when I read reviews of this. I think Vonnegut was high on household cleaners when he wrote this. I'm sort of interested to see what his other books are like, but since school is starting up again, I won't have the chance to for a while.

Went to Borders yesterday to return "Lonely Heart's Club" and I looked for excellent women, but they don't normally keep it in stock so I'm going to have to order it online. Which means I wont' have time to read it before school starts. Another bummer: I couldn't find anything at Borders that looked interesting to me, so I left without a new book. So I'm rereading a book instead.

FOOTLOOSE! That's the name of that movie with Kevin Bacon! Whew. That would have bugged me.

A Real Post

Alright, I was hoping to be able to update this blog on Sunday talking about how much fun I had Saturday night as part of my new years resolution. Have I mentioned what my New Years Resolution is? If I have, jump down a couple lines. If not, keep reading. My resolution is to try one new thing or step outside my comfort zone at least once a month. I already have a few very cool things planned. In August I'm visiting Tracy in Alaska (soooo excited!) in April, Oliver and I are going skydiving for my birthday (yes, I know. I'm crazy. I've heard this before.... but I'm still VERY excited). Saturday night was supposed to be my something new for January. I was supposed to go to a gay bar with Baybhee and Ally. Only, Ally text messaged me around three Saturday afternoon saying she had a headache. There was no way I was going by myself to a gay bar with Baybhee. My something new for January was NOT going to be to be ditched at a gay bar while Baybhee goes and hits on other girls, leaving me to fend for myself (this would definitely be out of my comfort zone, which is the second clause to my resolution, but I was hoping to ease myself into this by like...eating alone or something). So January's "something new" is still in the works.

So instead of going into DC Saturday night, I hung out close to home with Oliver. We went to our favorite Bar to have drinks and watch the game. And oh yeah, it was kind of his birthday. LOL. Got very drunk. I only had three Captain and Cokes, but I think it was mostly Captain Morgan with some Coke coloring. Joe had to drive me home, and then I had to drive back out with Dad and Helene to get my car. Come to think of it, my "something new" for January could be sitting in a car with Helene for twenty minutes without killing her.... haha. Woke up Sunday morning feeling a little dazed, but not hungover. So go me.

Everyone at work seems to be on a diet. I get yelled at anytime I snack in front of them, which is semi-annoying since I'm NOT on a diet... but it's working out in my favor anyway. I've lost ten pounds in the last month. I'm starting to go to Zumba class two times a week. I'm trying to step onto my Wii Fit at least every other day, just to do the fitness test, and when I can't make it to Zumba class or I feel guilty, I bought Zumba for the Wii. The Zumba Wii is broken into twenty minute classes, which is about 25-40 minutes shorter than the actual Zumba classes, but by the end of that twenty minutes I'm sweating and out of breath, so it's no less intense.

Something I'm going to try to get back into the habit of doing on here is to post what books I'm reading. It feel through last year I think around the time I went back to school because everything I read was school related and not always interesting... but I was reading Sara's blog the other day and she said she read 125 books last year, which is pretty remarkable. I want to keep track, because I bet I read just as many (because according to people around me, I'm "strange" for liking to read so much). I'm also going to post books that I've started and not been able to finish because I couldn't get into them. There's been two already this year (that itself should be a record).

Also, just finished my "last" final draft my Collide. One of the months this year, my something new is going to be writing a query letter and trying to get published. Stay tuned for that one. Well, I've gotta get going... I've got to be at work in an hour and my hair is still wet and I'm laying in bed... haha

 

This is the book I've actually read this year. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Sarah Dessen. Although, my argument to her would be to try to solve her main character's problems without revolving them around a boy. I understand people don't always like reading unhappy endings, but in real life the girl doesn't always end up with the boy. 

Could not for the life of me get through this book. I noticed this made Sara's "honorable mention" list for her top ten favorite books of 2010, but I couldn't get past page 75...and it was a fight to make it that far. I just couldn't subscribe to the ideas Condie was trying to introduce. None of the characters seemed real. (I was going to say none of the characters seemed likable, but Bob would argue with me that characters don't have to be likable in order for a book a to sell). None of the conversation seemed real. I had more questions to ask after each page than were being answered. If you're going to write about a fictional society, you need to be damn sure you explain everything. Like what the hell is a dream tab??? 

Another one I couldn't finish. I should have been discouraged by the fact Stephenie Meyer praised it, since I'm sure we all know how much I simply ADORE her.... but I couldn't read it. I might have been able to struggle through it if it were categorized as a Young Adult book... but then, maybe not. I found this book in the Fiction section of Borders and had high hopes for it as someone who is starting to swear off boys and their stupidity. But there is only so much dialogue I can take of characters saying "What to the evs" before I lose respect for them. I understand these characters are in high school. But I believe not everyone in high school is petty and speaks like they're five. Even when they weren't talking in slang the conversation wasn't believable. (And yes, the title is in reference to the Beatles' song. The main character's name is Penny Lane. Gag.)

I have one more week of reading before school starts again. I have one book I'm going to take into work with me today, and I think when I return "Lonely Hearts Club" I'm going to pick up "Excellent Women" which I'd never heard of before yesterday....there's a back story to this but now I'm really running late and I'll explain it later... 

Some inspirational quotes

I had this amazing calendar last year that had gorgeous sunrise shots with inspirational quotes below each picture. I got the same calendar this year, but this year's edition doesn't have the inspirational quotes which is a major bummer. But, because I don't want to lose last year's quotes, I'm going to post them here for everyone to enjoy.

"For Hope is but the dream of those that wake" - Matthew Prior
"Nothing is more beautiful than the loveliness of the woods before sunrise" - George Washington Carver
"When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive-- to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love" - Marcus Aurelius
"The secret of success in life is for a man to be ready for his opportunity when it comes"- Benjamin Disraeli
"And even the sun in dawn chorus sings a celestial melody to the earth below" - Tjaden
"Sadness flies on the wings of the morning and out of the heart of darkness comes the light"- Jean Giraudoux
"Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations" Louisa May Alcott
"Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished" Lao Tzu
"Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds" -Albert Einstein
"The sun does not shine for a few trees and flowers, but for the wide world's joy" - Henry Ward Beecher
"Keep your face always toward the sunshine-- and shadows will fall behind you" - Walt Whitman
"The morning of life is like the dawn of a day, full of purity, visions, and harmony"- Francois-Rene de Chateaubriand
"Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope or confidence." -Helen Keller.

I've bolded my favorites. =)

A real post will come later, I'm determined to sit down and clean my closet. Well, I won't actually be sitting when I clean... but you know what I mean.